I don't know if the thought of my own passing...

I don't know if the thought of my own passing and end of life terrifies me, so much as the possibility of losing one of my daughters or Grandsons. Always being very emotional ( I am choking back tears at an advertisement suggesting a man's dog dying :) ) so I fear the absolutely crippling emotion, becoming suicidal at this kind of loss. I am equally afraid of even having this fear, as I feel we force ourselves to have to face what we constantly fear. So how do I change this sort of disablity? Perhaps someone like Mr. Miller will write a book that I can connect and see my attachments in a more serene way.