The book: In Just Pursuit (Simon & Schuster), Coates exposes injustices and abuses of power within the American legal system. As a prosecutor with the Department of Justice, she intended to advocate for vulnerable populations — but quickly learned that the opposite was taking place. During her time on the front lines of the legal system, Coates witnessed people of color being systematically policed, prosecuted, and judged differently, leading to their overrepresentation in America’s courtrooms and prisons. She also recounts injustices against other marginalized groups, including a sexual assault victim who was victim-blamed by a judge, and an undocumented witness who was arrested and detained by ICE. Through these firsthand accounts of the legal system, Coates explores the tension between idealized notions of justice and the true flaws of the system — revealing that what is lawful may not be what is right.
The author: Laura Coates ’01 is a senior legal analyst at CNN. A former federal prosecutor, Coates served as assistant U.S. attorney for the District of Columbia and a trial attorney in the Civil Rights Division of the Department of Justice, specializing in the enforcement of voting rights. As a civil rights attorney, she traveled throughout the nation supervising local and national elections and led investigations into allegations of unconstitutional voting practices. In private practice, Coates was an intellectual property litigator with an expertise in First Amendment and media law. She earned her bachelor’s degree from Princeton’s School of Public and International Affairs in 2001 and her J.D. from the University of Minnesota Law School in 2005.
Excerpt:
The pursuit of justice creates injustice.
Before I became a prosecutor, I never imagined that could be true. I thought that the job would be an uncomplicated act of patriotism and that justice was what happened when a person was fairly tried and convicted for their crime.
For years, I stood inside a courtroom, representing the people of the United States. I witnessed firsthand how our just pursuits caused collateral damage in ways I couldn’t have imagined when I answered my calling to leave private practice as a civil litigator and join the Department of Justice.
My time at Justice began as a trial attorney in its Civil Rights Division. As a child, I knew the stories of Ruby Bridges and the Freedom Riders better than the tales of Dr. Seuss. My mother grew up in a segregated North Carolina, only migrating north when her parents found work—her mother as a domestic worker and her father, a butler and chauffeur—for some of the wealthiest white families in the Northeast. These families were the namesake of industry leaders—companies that I later happened to represent while working for large law firms. My father spent most of his childhood in foster care, and, although he was raised in a relatively integrated Massachusetts, he was still a Black boy in 1950s America.
In spite of their humble beginnings, my parents propelled themselves to becoming among the first generation in their families to not only go to college but also earn advanced degrees. My parents’ paths crossed in western Massachusetts, when they were students at neighboring Smith and Amherst Colleges, each only one of a relative handful of Black students at their respective schools. They met just two years after Reverend Martin Luther King Jr. was assassinated, when the fight for equality was far from over. They spoke often of the housing discrimination they had experienced while raising my two older sisters and me, and I watched the economic struggles faced by my father while trying to build a dental practice in a country where financing eluded Black people. While laws were in place, the nation’s conviction for equity never seemed to catch up. I was taught to understand the civil rights era not as finite but as a movement that we were all duty-bound to keep in motion.
Joining the Civil Rights Division in their work to enforce the Voting Rights Act was in service of that duty. The pride I felt working for the DOJ was immeasurable, but the bureaucracy was unbearable. Unsurprisingly, lobbyists and elected officials at the state and federal levels were particularly interested in our voting rights work, and would often interfere, rendering an investigation futile. I needed a reprieve from the paperwork. I thought being in trial would help, but federal trials in the enforcement of voting rights were few and far between.
One of my Black colleagues told me about a program he had participated in early in his career that allowed DOJ attorneys with few trial opportunities to go on temporary detail to a U.S. Attorney’s office in Washington, D.C. He always spoke so glowingly about his experience, regaling me with hilarious stories of courtroom antics and theatrics. My request to participate was repeatedly denied, however, since the program wasn’t readily available to voting rights lawyers, so I applied to work at the United States Attorney’s office directly.
When I received my offer, I headed to my colleague’s office for his congratulations. Instead, his normally jovial mood darkened when I told him that it was not a temporary six-month detail but a permanent position with a four-year commitment.
He closed the door, saying, “Two words, Coates: human misery.” He counted each word on his fingers. “I don’t know how to describe it other than to say that you’re not going to be able to get used to that type of human misery every day. There is nothing you can really do about it either. It just keeps coming.”
I was shocked. As a prosecutor, I assumed he would have been the only one in the courtroom who actually could have done something about the misery. Isn’t that what was meant by justice?
“Look, all I can tell you is be careful. You gotta protect yourself. You’re better off staying here at Main Justice,” he said, distinguishing our work from that of United States Attorneys across the country. “It’s a lot to deal with.”
I felt apprehensive as I watched him close his eyes in remembrance. But I wasn’t leaving the Department of Justice, I told myself, just working in a different capacity. I assumed it would be similar enough and that my work as a federal prosecutor in a criminal courtroom would be held in the same high regard as my work within the Civil Rights Division. I chalked up his admonishment to an assumption that he lacked what I clearly believed I had: fortitude.
In fact, the transition from enforcing civil rights legislation to criminal prosecution represented a seismic shift in how others perceived me, and even how I perceived myself. I had been a trusted champion of people who looked like me. But now, I was often distrusted as an agent of a system that disproportionately filled prisons with people who looked like me.
This created a struggle, an internal battle of allegiance, between the competing facets of my identity. It wasn’t always clear which should win. For seven years, I upheld my oath as a public servant, but my work put me at odds with my principles and lived experience as a Black woman. Over this time, I prosecuted in the name of justice while injustice unfolded on the national stage. I gave birth to my son the year Trayvon Martin was killed. I nursed my son while watching Trayvon’s mother fight for justice for her own. As the country debated whether Trayvon had been racially profiled by a wannabe cop, I consoled myself with the fact that I was in a position to punish a real one who might profile another woman’s child. Then I had my daughter. Three months later, Michael Brown was killed. I followed the case and saw the way the grand jury process was used to undermine the potential prosecution of the police officer who had shot Brown. As the country vilified the prosecutor’s decision not to indict the officer, I told myself that I was different from that prosecutor. As a Black woman and mother, I believed that I would never exploit the power I had over a grand jury to somehow deny justice. I convinced myself that I needed to remain a prosecutor to balance the system. And then Tamir Rice was killed. And I heard the familiar script of officers attempting to justify their use of force. The same script used by officers testifying against defendants in my own cases. And I looked at my growing son, who always tracked at the highest percentiles of height, and was terrified that he may one day be the little boy mistaken for a man.
And then I looked at my husband, a Black man who now feared his own death at the hands of police officers. He would ask me to explain why it was so hard to charge the officers in these cases.
“There’s no recourse? How can that be? Isn’t there some way . . .”
My answers could never alleviate his fear, only explain the process by which I had been trained. I again tried to distinguish myself, assuring him that prosecutors like me would make different decisions. But a part of him was resigned to the possibility that I might be the exception and not the rule. I was terrified that he was right, or worse, that I had fooled myself into thinking I could actually be the exception.
We wondered how soon to have “the talk” and not the one white people have with their kids. We needed to teach our children how to interact with police officers, and refused to let either of them play with toys that even slightly resembled a weapon. I knew it wasn’t fair to limit my children this way, but I didn’t know how not to be afraid.
And then came the day my husband stopped asking me questions about prosecutors’ charging decisions and instead installed a camera in our car. I laughed, thinking that he had purchased another unnecessary gadget for himself. His expression dissolved my smile. He told me that the camera was for me. If he were ever killed by a police officer in a traffic stop, he just wanted me to know what happened. He had heard me talk so often about the rehearsed scripts officers used to justify their excessive use of force, he hoped this would be a way to capture the truth. It was his love letter to me, and it broke my heart.
As an insider, I felt powerless to ensure justice. I eventually became distrustful of a system in which I was a decision maker. I looked around the courtroom through the eyes of a prosecutor, but also as a Black woman, daughter, sister, wife, and mother. I couldn’t stomach the homogeneity of the defendants inside the gate compared to the people outside of it. Out of the hundreds of criminal matters I prosecuted in court, I can count the number of White defendants I saw on one hand.
The imbalance was revolting. I cringed at how accustomed the courtroom had become to a choreographed routine, with everyone knowing their place and role. Two armed marshals wearing rubber gloves would stand behind the defendants, waiting for the judge to nod—a command to restrain them. As natural as it was for me to clasp my hands together in front of my body, so it was for the defendants to hold their hands behind their backs without prompting, expecting to feel the metal of handcuffs.
I questioned my own role within the system. Others did too. Black defendants would pass me with an air of surprise that I was standing where they assumed a White man would be. My allegiance was also on trial. Was it to the laws of the United States? To the Black community? To the officers? To the powers that be? These constituencies were increasingly at odds. When I first became a prosecutor, I had thought each case could represent a dot on the arc that Dr. King hoped would bend toward justice. Now, I wondered if I was bending the arc of justice or breaking it, and afraid the justice system might just break me.
I was no longer confident that my presence in the system was an asset and not somehow a betrayal. Even guilty verdicts couldn’t prevent collateral damage to the victims. I knew these stories needed to be told, but my position as prosecutor served to muzzle me. I debated whether to leave my job, unsure whether I could make a bigger impact as a participant or a spectator of the justice system.
After four years, four words revealed the clear choice. I was standing in the hallway of the courthouse after having won yet another trial, securing yet another guilty verdict against yet another Black person. My White supervisor had watched my closing argument and had accompanied me for the verdict. He was showering me with praise as he held his hand up for a high five. My hand met his.
“We got another one!” he exclaimed, wrapping his hand around my flat palm and pumping it in the air. Before I could respond, he walked away, disappearing into another courtroom to watch another colleague’s trial. I didn’t need to meet the eyes of another Black person standing in the hallway to know that my own should have been lowered.
I replayed that moment for days, turning the phrase over in my head.
“We . . . got . . . another . . . one!”
My entire being recoiled. I tried not to project my own feelings on my supervisor and extend the benefit of the doubt, but his words felt like an indoctrination. For my conscience, it was the proverbial final straw. I walked away the day my four-year commitment ended, not knowing whether I had been a proud champion or a coward, complicit or exonerated, the public’s humble servant or its slave. What I did know was that one day my children would realize that I was only human, and I needed to be able to look them in their eyes when they did.
I wanted them to know what it meant to pursue justice, and what could happen along the way to the people with the power and to those who are powerless. I gave birth to my two children while a prosecutor, and I wanted them to understand the thoughts I carried within me as I carried them into the world. I wanted that world to be just. I removed the muzzle and used my experiences in the courtroom as a guide to educate the public as a law professor, news analyst, and radio talk show host. In that, I have found a new calling.
When I left the job, I left the files on my desk, but I took the memories with me in the hopes that by sharing the injustices I’d witnessed, justice itself might one day be possible. What follows are those stories.
Reprinted with permission from Just Pursuit by Laura Coates, published by Simon & Schuster. © 2021 by Simon & Schuster. All rights reserved.
Reviews:
“A firsthand, eye-opening story of a prosecutor that exposes the devastating criminal punishment system. Laura Coates bleeds for justice on the page.” — Ibram X. Kendi, author of Stamped from the Beginning and How to Be an Antiracist.
“A searing and soul-searching book. At a time when the American justice system is being reexamined, Laura Coates forces readers to do their own self-examination.” — Jose Antonio Vargas, founder of Define American and author of Dear America: Notes of an Undocumented Citizen
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